I'm a horrible horrible person.  It's been far too long since I've been on this site and talked to my friends.  I've had so much going on that I completely forgot to check in regularly.  I'm working full time now and still modeling on days off, saving plenty of money so Adam and I can get our own place.  I've been crocheting and knitting like a fiend to relieve some of the stress from work and I've been trying to keep my website updated.  So much to do and there's never enough time.

Samhain is coming quickly too and I"m not yet sure what I'm going to do, I have a few days off from work so there's plenty of time to do something, I was thinking of maybe going to the Fright Fest at Six Flags we'll see what happens though.  Any way I need to go, I'll try my hardest to keep this updated.  Take care all.

Blessings,
      Krystal )0(

You are the Hanged Man

Self-sacrifice, Sacrifice, Devotion, Bound.

With the Hanged man there is often a sense of fatalism, waiting for something to happen. Or a fear of
loss from a situation, rather than gain.

The Hanged Man is perhaps the most fascinating card in the deck. It reflects the story of Odin who offered himself as a sacrifice in order to gain knowledge. Hanging from the world tree, wounded by a spear, given no bread or mead, he hung for nine days. On the last day, he saw on the ground runes that had fallen from the tree, understood their meaning, and, coming down, scooped them up for his own. All knowledge is to be found in these runes.

The Hanged Man, in similar fashion, is a card about suspension, not life or death. It signifies selflessness, sacrifice and prophecy. You make yourself vulnerable and in doing so, gain illumination. You see the world differently, with almost mystical insights.

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Could his touch feel like a petal dance?
His body illuminates sweet romance
The softness of his silken skin
Weakens me and makes me spin

His touch is like a velvet rose
His words are drowning all my woes

His scent so strong and full of power
He is my most faithful flower
The love we share so beautiful
Within the water our petals float

His touch is like a velvet rose
His words are drowning all my woes

His warm embrace, so comforting
We chase the bee so it won't sting
We stand together proud and tall
Soon our petals will start to fall

His touch is like a velvet rose
His words are drowning all my woes

Weakened knees and butterflies
Sometimes love leads to demise
To his warmth when I am cold
To know the truth of what I'm told

His touch is like a velvet rose
His words are drowning all  my woes

Emotions frosting freezing over
His scent replaced  by that of clover
Endless tears fall from my eyes
I told him love leads to demise

His touch unlike a velvet rose
His words are bringing back my woes

He's always there to be with me
These feelings last eternity
Hurtful thoughts inside my head
So much gone, I'm left for dead

His touch unlike a velvet rose
His words are bringing back my woes

To see him there and looking lost
So dearly does this madness cost
I thought that we would never end
But now I've lost my only friend

His touch unlike a velvet rose
His words are bringing back my woes

I've lost his scent, his sense of power
My sorrow does nothing but devour
Tears still fall from restless eyes
Blackened now is my worlds sky

His touch unlike a velvet rose
His words are bringing back my woes

Once together we fall apart
A horrific ending with a lovely start
I love him still, it's that I clutch
He doesn't know he means so much

His touch was like a velvet rose
His words once drowned all of my woes...

Hello everyone. If you don't want to read this blog then you don't have to, I just need to vent and let off a little steam and I figured this is just as good a place as any to do that.

Things at work have not been going well lately and I'm really pissed off at my boss and one of my co-workers. They treat me differently because I'm a girl (I work at a car wash so they think that I can't handle it because it's a "mans" job). On Sundays when the boss isn't there a guy named Julian is in charge, and it's really hard to understand him when he's talking to you because he's from Argentina and has a very strong accent and a high pitched voice and he's constantly bitching at me on Sundays for stupid things and saying that I'm not doing my job when I am so when he doesn't shut up and keeps repeating the same shit over and over again I get frustrated and angry and I end up yelling at him in return and telling him to leave me the hell alone and let me do my job. His retaliation: telling the boss on Monday when he's there...I can't win. It's also freezing outside right now and my uniform is definitely not warm enough for me to be standing outside for 6 hours or more, and I'm not allowed to wear a black headband to keep my damn ears warm it has to be blue to match the uniform, well correct me if I'm wrong, but doesn't black go with everything? It's a universal color there's nothing that it doesn't look good with! I think I'm going to quit by the end of the month at the latest, sooner if I get pissed off enough or can't stay warm enough. I know it's not the smartest thing but not only is there discrimination going on because I'm female therefore I'm "weaker", but I can't work with people who start bullshit. I don't take bull from anyone I don't care who you are. If I disagree with someone I tell them, no hesitation and I'll continue to be that way regardless of how much trouble it may eventually get me into, and my boss also wants me to work on my day off, saying I need to make sacrifices. I shouldn't have to make those kinds of sacrifices when I'm already working six days a week and doing overtime so I just told him I wasn't going to do it because I had plans and I need to rest and warm up. I've started looking for a new job already because it's best to have a back up when I quit. But if I don't have one right away then I should have one soon, I won't give up until I find something I can do and still stay warm, not to mention have reasonable hours and a couple days off a week at the very least. I'm not someone who normally gets frustrated by things like this, but it's just the combination of things that takes its toll. Well anyway I think I'm done ranting now sorry about that.

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Okay, really, I'm done now....

I saw eternity the other night
As vast as and endless ring of light
I saw everything there is to see
I saw how the world will come to be
I looked upon faces of people I know
I looked for things and places to go

I sat at the edge of the world and watched
And I heard the ticking of an antique clock
I sat with the comfort of knowing myself
And thinking of what this world has dealt

I slept with the wind rushing through my hair
I  saw great things cast off the sun's glare
I looked at the faced whirling around me
I sat still and silent and felt I was drowning
I searched for an answer to all of my pondering
I promised myself I would stop my wandering

I saw it all through another's eyes
I saw how we all tell sickly lies
I saw the dangers  of the past
And I looked for a way to get out of it fast

I heard the sound of Destiny
And watched it all come back to me
I lost myself within a book
And knew no one would come to look
I heard the sound of dreams come true
And watched life spin in hues of blue

I saw the light of Earth's first day
And wished that I could sit and stay
I saw the beasts of lifetimes lost
I looked again and saw the frost

I fought for words to speak aloud
Clearing away the distant clouds
I saw the beauty in everything
I smiled and knew I belonged again
I sat at the edge of the world and watched
And heard the clocks ticking suddenly stop

I saw eternity the other night
As vast as an endless ring of light...